Bad Mood DudeLately, I’m Will Ferrell running around a racetrack trying to put out the invisible fire. You can’t see it? Well, that’s just because you’re not the kind of team mate who’ll knock me to the ground and use your body to smother the invisible flames.
Anyone want some of this crack? Got it at Target. It was on sale.
I’m amazed any of you keep coming back when you don’t live in my head and see and hear what I do when things go sideways. If it’s going well, I’m thanking Jesus, 8 pounds 6 ounces baby Jesus, new born, not even spoken a word yet. If it’s not, I’m begging Tom Cruise to use his witchcraft to get the invisible fire off me. I’m very impressionable, apparently.
But jiminy, enough with the tests of character. Things are going well. I have a future with someone I love to pieces. I have three beautiful, bright, healthy children. I have managed to hang onto the house for years despite employers going out of business, running out of cash, people crashing into my car in front of the kids’ school, TWICE, and being uninsured or on the verge of it for longer than I can count back, in months, using all fingers and toes.
The kids are insured with their father and have been since I left the foundation in 2005, and suddenly his company is going all kinds of haywire and implementing COBRA even though they’re just changing hands. It’s a company that feeds families, not a hot potato, forjeeperssakes, so please treat it accordingly! So now he’s resigned and COBRA is sucking the life out of him. I have my own COBRA cross to bear, and I swear the two bills combined make up damn near half a mortgage.
I haven’t heard back from the EDD on unemployment, haven’t had an income since May, and am spewing resumes like a woodchipper hoping to get some kind of paid work with benefits. I am a multi-talented person, folks, and I can do most anything I put my mind to, but at some point I need a little push. A little leg up. A little freaking opening.
Do I want to be collecting unemployment? No. Do I want to consider filling out the reduced-cost lunch program so my kids can eat for less at school? No. Do I want to try to attach my ex’s wages? No. Do I want to borrow more money now that I finally don’t owe anyone else anything anymore? No. Do I want to keep driving a car that has a broken seatbelt and three windows that don’t go up and down like they’re supposed to? No. But I do want to keep trying.
Hard times are causing my ex and me to snap at each other, challenging each other’s money management, raiding drawers at each other’s house because we KNOW we bought clothes for the kids but can’t find a single pair of shorts ten minutes before school starts and I know all the laundry is clean and put away.
I’m going to sell my former wedding ring. I’ve seen places like idonowidont.com, but don’t know which of all the similar sites is most trustworthy and productive. I don’t think I’ll get what it’s worth at the jeweler’s. What did you do with your rings when you split up? Did you have to sell them? Did you prefer to keep them for posterity? Do you want to buy a beautiful, 2.5 carat, three-stone diamond ring set in platinum? For you, special deal today.
Time to finish coffee and get looking again for a job. I was all excited to see a records/database/web manager position at the school district office when I went to ask for test scores this morning, but the final date for applications passed last week. Testing is just ending. I could have done that job in a heartbeat. Until then, I’ll just keep doing my job with my children and hope for more Karmic blessing.









08.27.08 at 10:11 AM |
If your school pays anything like my school, that job probably pays about 25K.
I had my diamond reset into a ring that I wear often and my wedding ring is just sitting in a jewelry box collecting dust. It’s not worth much, just a thin band of gold with a couple of diamond chips. I actually had to have it cut off when I was pregnant the last time and never had it fixed. Maybe that should have been an omen that I didn’t want to wear it anymore.
08.27.08 at 12:18 PM |
I had plans to save my three stone ring (which ironically sounds very similar to yours but was set in yellow gold) so that I could have a pendant made for each of my three daughters for their wedding. It went commando. I have my theories, but it was off my insurance because I was renting at the time and well, didn’t carry a policy any longer. It still makes me angry!
I watch IDoNowIDont.com all the time… I think its worth a try on there. I wouldn’t go with pawn shops or eBay.
If it was in the budget over here I’d gladly buy it. :) Unfortunately that’s not in the cards, we just bought a new Saint Bernard Pup.
Good Luck Mindy!
We are still rooting for you!
Jamie
08.27.08 at 12:28 PM |
I so want to send you $10 right now. Can I send it? Will it help? Anyway, even though I don’t really know you, I think you are a superhero in every sense of the word (one of the non-flying kinds). Your kids are growing up with such an awesome childhood, full of love and wit and sarcasm, and they need it more than some random corporation needs it. :)
You could always sell Avon…
08.27.08 at 03:10 PM |
I wish I knew what kind of job you were looking for - you seem like one of those who is almost TOO talented that people don’t want to hire because they’ll have to pay you too much!!
I’m sure you’ve craigslisted your heart out, but if you’re hitting up the local school you might want to hit up the local colleges. They are always hiring and usually keep a binder of job offerings at the information desk. Have you thought about looking outside your realm of expertise? You ARE multi-talented and I’m sure ANY person would snap you up in a moment, regardless of you actually knowing the field, solely because you pick it up so quick.
Good luck you!
PS I like the idea of turning the wedding ring into something else to wear if you don’t sell it.
08.27.08 at 03:12 PM |
Reselling jewelry is tough. If you have anything that’s just gold, take it to an individual jeweler, not a chain. They’ll buy it for the gold which is at a high price right now. Diamonds are tough. You might have an easier time selling the loose stones, especially if you have the appraisal for them.
You strike me as a very resourceful person! You’ll get there! Tom Cruise told me so.
08.29.08 at 01:51 PM |
testing avatars, don’t mind me.
09.04.08 at 06:07 AM |
seven years ago I was alone in my living room and I felt the conviction of the Holy Spirit on my heart. I knew without a shadow of a doubt I was a sinner on my way down to the pit. For the first time I can remember “I cried”. You know guy’s…we never cry, but I was genuinely sorry about my sinful lifestyle. I got on my knees and with humility in my heart I asked Jesus to forgive me and come into my life. He did just that! Since then He has completely changed my life and I have the assurance that I belong to God and have an eternal home in heaven. I also have a joy I never had before and a peace that has set me free from the anxiety of this life. I wrote this because some of you really want a relationship with God but your uncertain how to get it. Jesus said: “I am the Way, the Truth and the Life, no man comes to the Father but by Me.” (John 14:6) He has proven that to me!
10.02.08 at 06:56 AM |
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