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him: Logan is a smart cookie
me: yep
him: and Dylan melts me
me: and Dylan is a sweet one
him: and Daphne is gorgeous
me: oh I wanted to slap her today
him: uh oh
me: she refused to wear pants or a skirt
me: it has to be a dress, and one of her liking
him: uhuh, sounds like mine
me: so I said I was cleaning out her dresser and giving all of her pants away
me: and shirts
me: and she got very upset
me: and I said well you won’t wear them and they are sad and should go to someone else
me: and then I realized what I sounded like
me: and walked away
him: heeeee
me: and let Gil do it
me: I wish I didn’t have a feeling of resignation
him: I don’t know what to say to that
me: oh there is nothing to say
me: it just makes me a little sad
me: I am not good at accepting things they way I don’t want them
him: oh I know
me: there is no room for me to feel light and happy and silly and all that
him: I understand
me: and I accept that it will be a while before I have that luxury
me: but you go right ahead!
him: heh
me: but don’t feel sad or offended if I can’t keep up
him: I do feel sad, but mainly because you are so stretched and I can’t help
me: ah I am fine
me: you can’t help with this
him: ok, like I said, I will just be here…
me: deal
him: I just think it would be nice to be able to wipe away the pain
me: well I could fill a barn with what would be nice
him: ...
me: I just mean that there are lots of things to wish for and I am just in a very pragmatic mode right now
him: it makes me sad to see you so resigned
me: what else can I do?
him: nothing, it is the way through
me: how is resignation bad??
him: it’s not bad per se
him: it’s just not like the Mindy I know
me: oh I have always been resigned
him: resignation isn’t something I would say you were over familiar with
him: someone who tends to resignation wouldn’t have achieved the success you have career wise
him: wouldn’t have taken the steps you have to make your life and your children’s lives better
me: resignation isn’t always painted with a broad brush
him: I can see you as accepting, pragmatic, realistic
him: resignation, to me, signifies some sort of surrender and that isn’t a word I would associate with you
me: with little pockets of resignation so I can stop fretting about some things
him: that’s realism
me: oh then you haven’t been paying attention lately
me: it’s been all about giving up on some things
me: and accepting others
him: you have done everything but surrender
me: not in everything
me: but I have at work
me: and at home
him: giving up some things isn’t surrender, it is reorganization
me: surrender is doing my job with a smile and accepting guidance
him: you stood up, took the hit and are forging forward, you didn’t surrender, you modified your tactics
me: I surrender to preserve my health
him: and you certainly didn’t surrender at home
me: I surrendered my intact family
him: you retreat and protect
him: because the alternative would have been an intact but extremely unhappy family
him: you made the right choices
me: ah we are arguing semantics
him: no we aren’t
him: we are arguing point of view
him: you are a fucking hero Mindy
me: I have surrendered the hope that anyone will take care of me in any meaningful, concrete way
him: my wife got an email from one of our friends today who is struggling with some stuff
him: she thanked her for guiding her to your blog because you have inspired her to keep on going
him: you ROCK girl
me: are you serious?
him: and you should never surrender that hope
him: yes I am serious
me: oh now I am crying
him: you are an inspiration to lots of people, ME included
me: omg I am shaking
him: you have an impact
him: a real impact, don’t ever sell yourself short
him: what you have done, and continue to do, is to show that is possible to be real, to be a PERSON
him: in spite of obstacles
me: I feel like I can’t keep up and that I am failing, and to hear that.... man I can’t stop crying
him: you have nothing to “keep up”, you can’t fail at being Mindy… that is impossible. It isn’t what you do it’s who you are
me: I just hope it’s enough
me: and if it isn’t, screw ‘em
him: of course it is enough
him: yep
me: I am serious
me: that had a huuuuge impact
him: I know
him: good
me: thank you
him: don’t thank me
him: I am just your pal
me: yes, and that is a good thing
him: good
me: I have to save this so I can read it later
him: ok
me: wow
me: *sniffling
him: *wipes away snotters
me: ew, from a man who can’t blow his own nose
him: I can, I just gag
me: I am blowing mine something fierce
him: heh
me: three Kleenex!
me: thank you for making my day
me: I need to preserve this
me: thank you so much
me: this may be my weekend post
me: as a thank you to my friends
him: ok
him: I am going now
me: ok
him: xxx
me: xxx